I recalled a vision I had received in one of my very first Ayahuasca ceremonies. I was walking barefoot through the Jungle, flowers blooming out of my footsteps behind me where I walked. I know, without a doubt in my heart, life has guided me here to do this work with these medicines for a reason. I am here to heal, learn, and grow. I thanked Spirit, Ayahuasca, Chiric Sanango, and my other plant teachers and guides for calling me to do this work and protecting me while I learn to soften my edges and shed my old skin. I thanked them for guiding me towards wholeness so that I could one day help others find wholeness within themselves too. I felt my energy shift as I let go of my frustration around what wasn't and redirected my attention to what was.
I realized then that I associate healing with suffering and therefore resisted doing the work it takes to get well. My plant teachers were teaching me that healing doesn't necessarily require you to suffer and it doesn't have to be difficult or painful in order for it to be effective. Sometimes all that is required to heal is as simple as the desire for change, an open heart and mind, patience, and faith. True healing can't be rushed. Just like you cannot force a rose to bloom. In time, when the rose is ready, she will soften her petals and open herself up. The simplicity of the dieting process has a way of doing just that. It provides a safe container for you to slowly, and in your own time, begin to surrender and open yourself up to receiving the wisdom from Mother Nature and her plant teachers.
After that, when I let go of my expectations, the jungle began to open herself up to me. Or maybe I began to open myself up to the jungle when I let go of the idea that suffering was necessary. Perhaps it was my imagination but it felt as if the jungle started to come alive in the way I've only heard of in mystical stories. My fear had disappeared and the borders I had built were falling away. It was as if I had unlocked a door to the next level of my own healing journey. More on that soon…
If you are reading this, I imagine you are on your own path of healing and self discovery too. Although oftentimes it's not easy, suffering itself isn't always necessary. Remember, sometimes all that is required to heal is as simple as the desire for change, an open heart and mind, patience, and faith. Most good things take time. Surrender & Trust.